
Losing a job is not easy. Of course it is not true for the first day, week, month, or two. Oh, it feels more like a blessing. You can spend in bad as much time in the morning as you want to, watch all your favorite TV soaps (or start to watch one), eat, walk, bath, talk with friends when you want to and as many as you want to, and simply do nothing for the whole day. It seems like you deserve a rest, after so many sleepless nights, stress and constant fight for survival at work. There is no greater pleasure then feeling of calm happiness and peace when you open your eyes in the shinny lights of the warm sun, still in the charm of a wonderful dream. At the beginning this sudden freedom gives you wings of new opportunities, forgotten dreams, and hobbies. There are so many things in this life that you can do, want to do but never had a time for that. I remember how it was for me at the beginning… I had to buy a diary in order to put into schedule all things that were in my mind and I wanted to do. All my forgotten passions came to live – I wanted to dance, play piano, ride a horse, read books, and watch TV. I thought that would be not enough time for me to do all of that…
Unfortunately those feelings didn’t stay for long. At the first evening night when all members of my family was gathered and started to talk about their day accomplishments, success, problems, people they met at work…. Strong feeling that something missing in my life came along. I could clearly see difference between me and the rest of the world. Not much to share… (unless of course about this very tasty dish I cooked and how I managed to do that). First thoughts of misery came into my mind. It got worse. Due to this crisis I could not find a job. Potential employers seem to hide somewhere away from the eyes of people. And then again, most of my things in the “to do list” required money… now I could see problem and constant worries filled in my heart. Obsessed with the necessity of getting job and money I was knocking into doors of potential employers. Probably because of my eagerness that was written in the eyes, or just because of great competition, they all refused me. Which made me worried more….
Worries are not gone… But it got better, since I decided to take advantage of my new life. I was looking at my life from the perspective of stranger that would want the same life as I have for him/her self. And new opportunities started to arise. I came down and now I continue to do things I want to do, just looking with the hope to the future.
Unfortunately those feelings didn’t stay for long. At the first evening night when all members of my family was gathered and started to talk about their day accomplishments, success, problems, people they met at work…. Strong feeling that something missing in my life came along. I could clearly see difference between me and the rest of the world. Not much to share… (unless of course about this very tasty dish I cooked and how I managed to do that). First thoughts of misery came into my mind. It got worse. Due to this crisis I could not find a job. Potential employers seem to hide somewhere away from the eyes of people. And then again, most of my things in the “to do list” required money… now I could see problem and constant worries filled in my heart. Obsessed with the necessity of getting job and money I was knocking into doors of potential employers. Probably because of my eagerness that was written in the eyes, or just because of great competition, they all refused me. Which made me worried more….
Worries are not gone… But it got better, since I decided to take advantage of my new life. I was looking at my life from the perspective of stranger that would want the same life as I have for him/her self. And new opportunities started to arise. I came down and now I continue to do things I want to do, just looking with the hope to the future.
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